5.18 Life is tragic  (Page 5/15)

Life sucks because it’s just feelings

Everything in life boils down to a feeling. Anything you do, anything you say, or anything you think it’s just going to wind up making you feel some way about it. That’s extremely pathetic, that means you have to worry about emotional/feeling attachments to every single object in the world, how they make you feel, and what they make you do. That’s immensely complicated. Life sucks because it is way too complicated. There must be a million different types of feelings, even for the same piece of food you could probably eat it in 50 different ways. And each time the feeling you get when you eat it is going to be different, no single feeling is every exactly the same. That means you can never say, “ah I did that before, that was fun” instead each time something happens you have to spend time and figure out if you actually like it, and if it was actually fun. However, the work involved analyzing each feeling takes away any possible fun the actual feeling could cause, if you know what I mean. Humans are burdened because they have to think about everything. Humans are the only animals I have seen cry. It seems to me that the crying is much much worse than the happiness, and the happiness doesn’t “balance it out”. I mean when you see someone crying that’s a much more intense emotion then any happy feeling they could get. You give someone crying or very sad a more attention then you’d give someone extremely happy. That’s proof that the emotion is more intense. Have you ever seen a duck cry? Nope. Ducks are happy all the time, they don’t have huge emotional swings like humans do. They don’t have to deal with all the trauma and bull shit. I can tell you I would be much happier being a duck. It gets even worse when there are extremely complicated negative feelings, that makes you feel like you’re being pressed in by a lot of evil.

Your feelings are at best robotic

Since most of your brain is neurons feelings don’t really exist, and you’re just a neurological robot, that thinks. You think you have feelings, but what’s really going on is just what condition your physical body is in. If you’ve done something to make your physical brain happy and content its neurons, then you will think that you are happy. But really all you’ve done is achieved a healthier state of neurological stimulus. Or a different chemical balance in your brain. So you don’t need to say “I’m happy” you can just say “the chemicals and neurons in my brain are in the state that I happen to call happy”. I hope you don’t seriously think you’re happy when really you’re just chemically altered. The happiest you ever were was really just a disgusting mess of guck in your brain acting differently than it ever had before. I mean why does one mental condition matter as being better than another? It’s all biology. Your body is just a bunch of neurons in your brain which are now not moving around versus moving around. Your neurons don’t care if they are “happy”. All they do is send off chemical signals in your brain. In fact, your neurons are constantly rearranging themselves, you are never the same person you change all the time. One way you change is you forget most of what happens to you, if your eyes were a video camera they’d be a camera with a 5 second memory that’s perfect. You forget 99% of what you see. What’s the point of living if you are going to forget 99% of what happened in your environment in 5 seconds? What about 10 seconds? Can you remember everything that was in your vision exactly 10 seconds ago? I doubt it. You can’t even process what everything you are seeing is at one time, you can only focus on one or a couple of things. You miss MOST of what is going on. You’re just a very limited biological animal, that can’t remember in detail anything that was going on near them after 10 seconds. How long does a “happy” feeling stay fresh in your mind? An hour or so, then it becomes just a memory, most of which you forget in a day. If you are happy at 12:00 today you are probably not going to remember you were happy then two days from now. 6 months from now you are going to forget most minor things that made you happy. 1 year from now you’re probably going to forget everything but a few things that made you happy in this month, if you can even identify why you’re happy in the first place. What’s the point of living if you don’t remember almost all of what you live through? And you were never really happy in the first place, just “neurologically satisfied”. So most of the “feelings” that you are going to forget, didn’t even really exist in the first place. Also, most of the “feelings” you have aren’t even happy ones. If you look back to a long time ago you probably only remember good memories, but that’s because that’s all you remember. That’s altering your perspective on how much you go through is actually “fun”. Most of the feelings you have are not “happy” ones but mundane and ordinary. Most things in life aren’t fun and you can check that by seeing how your “feelings” are doing. You will realize that you’re not even “happy” a tiny portion of the time. What’s the point of living if you only like living it 1% of the time? Are you even happy 1 minute out of every 100? Can you say that you’re happy most of the time? When you typically say you’re happy you are just looking at how happy you are relative to how happy you usually are, or to how happy other people are, not how happy you really are, which is determined by looking minute by minute how you feel. If you look at it that way, (in minutes), how many minutes of each day are you happy? Probably less than 60, that’s a tiny portion of your time that you happy, that means that you were never actually happy in your entire life, since that one time you said you were happy it only actually lasted 60 minutes. When someone says they are happy they are just really looking at the little time they were happy when they said it, everyone is actually overly optimist about how happy they are. Assuming you’re in the BEST mental state you can be in, then you’d be at best neither happy or sad most of the time, just “going through life mundanely, not really enjoying most of it, not really feeling anything”. You’re just unfeeling and cold most of the time, since most of the time you’re neither happy and sad. Therefore all feeling is at best robotic. When someone says to you, “hi how are you doing” and you reply “good” by good you don’t mean happy most of the time, you mean, most of the time you don’t feel anything at all! Because that’s your best, highest mental state, not feeling most of the time, rarely being happy, and at least being sad as much as you were happy, that’s the highest state you can ever achieve. Sorry